Am I Selling Out For Not Dating Within My Race?
Dear Evan,
I just read your post on the difficulties that Asian men have in dating interracially. You don’t address racial dynamics much on your blog, but I have a question for you: I’m a very attractive, westernized Asian female in my early 30’s. Fun-loving, outgoing and attract all kinds of men easily. According to a number of studies and also, based on my own observations, most Asian women have a preference for white men over their own and aren’t likely to consider blacks or Hispanics.
To be blunt, I’m convinced most Asian women seek out white men because a) they are generally seen as more desirable catches by society b) they want their children to have as many advantages as possible in life - infusing some “European” blood in the mix will increase the odds that they will have more physiological advantages. However, I’m a little different: though I have dated white guys, I deliberately don’t gravitate towards them because I can’t let go of that Utopian ideal in which one day people truly will be “color blind." As much as possible, I try to give the “other race” category more of a chance. I suppose it’s my own twisted way of trying to contribute to a more just world.
But, it’s a bit more complicated. I kinda feel guilty about the fact that I’m not attracted to Asian men. Dating white men makes me feel like a sell out! And so, I opt for "other." Thus, in the end, I still haven't escaped being prejudiced in some way. A truly open minded person wouldn’t discriminate the way I would. Anyways, here’s my problem: As I reflect on my dating history, I’m keenly aware of the fact that in my past I twice rejected white guys who were perfect complements for me (and handsome, to boot). The “other race” categories of guys that I had the hots for, all in some way had the same psychological issues that I had, and so what drew us together also pulled us apart.
I’m now in my 30’s and still single. White men love me. Just accept one and – ta-da- this grueling thing called dating will be over. They won’t understand me the way that a minority, “other race” person would, but they will probably be more devoted. But why do I feel so defeated in accepting this idea? It’s as if the gravitation pull of the natural dynamics of interracial dating is just too strong for my feeble attempts to want the world to be different than what it actually is. I am simplifying things here, but this is the gist of my issues. I’m sure there is a non white guy out there who could also be devoted to me, but, hey, the clock is ticking and I don’t have forever to wait for the perfect guy. Please Evan, give me the blunt truth on where my blind spots are.
Lily
Dear Lily,
A few years ago, I got a call from a journalist from an Israeli newspaper called Ha’aretz.
It wasn’t so much of an interview as an assault. It kind of went like this:
"What's wrong with Jewish men?!"
“What’s wrong with Jewish men?! They’re screwing up an entire generation of our religion. They’re mamas boys with God complexes. And they refuse to settle down with nice Jewish girls. As a Jewish man, what do you think is wrong with Jewish men?”
To this highly biased and subjective question, I tried to give the most objective answer I could:
Awe, that’s beautiful. Thanks Evan!
Lily;
I did read in your email that you realize your desires are a bit inconsistent. They don’t have to be. A color blind woman would date the man whose company she enjoys the most, whatever the color of his skin is. It is a good recipe for your personal happiness too.
Wow Evan…I’m a new reader of your blog and the more I read, the more I want to keep reading!
For Lily…I was raised an Irish Catholic (not so much a practicing Catholic anymore…but I digress). When I was in my early 20’s, I dated, got into a long term relationship with and then engaged to another Irish Catholic. Match made in heaven, right? We both understood what it was like to have dozens of cousins, crazy family holidays and we both had semi-overbearing Irish Catholic mothers.
Guess what? I called off the wedding literally a few months before (and if you can appreciate calling off an Irish Catholic wedding with 2 huge Irish families…this was like stopping an avalanche)
Turns out…he and I…once we moved AWAY from our huge Irish Catholic families to another city? WE weren’t really that compatible. Our families, our upbringing…the entire ‘package’ fit…but WE didn’t.
Find someone that makes you complete and happy and let the rest of the ‘pieces’ fall into place. Religion, race, etc…that’s all icing on the cake. When you are at home alone in your house with your ‘partner’ what matters is if the two of you are content and happy with each other. At least that’s my opinion and what I’m looking for.
Okay, so from this thread we have that Jewish mothers are overbearing, Indian mothers are overbearing and Irish mothers are overbearing. It seems like ever ethnicity believes they have the corner on eccentric parents.
@ Steve: Ha! Maybe the generalization should be that lots of mothers are overbearing, regardless of race, ethnicity, or religion. 🙂
Lily, all I can really say is go with what works for you. I don’t think you are racist or disloyal by not being attracted to Asian men. Keep an open mind about it, as you never can tell when that one Asian man will come along and sweep you off your feet. But, honestly, there is no rule in any book that says you have to date and/or marry someone you don’t find attractive on some level. You’ve kept an open mind about the “others”. If you find that fails over and over, there is nothing wrong, and everything right, about changing your tactics and trying a different method. Go ahead and date the white guy. If he’s right for you, you’ll find out, and if you are anything like me, you would hate to miss out on it because of a misguided idea that you have to date the boy next door instead even when that boy just doesn’t do it for you. I wish you luck!
I’ve seen a lot of verbiage how many African American men date outside of their race. I’ve known a number of Indian women who do not want to hook up with Indian men. Then there is the thing with Jewish men hooking up with women who are not Jewish. I think that along with post #4 is grist for an interesting book on dating and ethnicity. I’m not a writer so anyone who is you are welcome to the idea 🙂
Indian men statistically marry out more than their women in every white country on the planet
Humans are discriminating and have preferences–there is nothing wrong with that, it’s natural. There is a concerted effort to make others feel bad (and make themselves feel better!) because we’re human and are discriminating and have preferences.
It is ALL about the content of character and NOT about the color of one’s skin in regard to judging and accepting people into your life–friends or boyfriends or husbands/wives. In regard to dating and potentially marrying…those stakes are very high and the ultimate goal is to be with someone who is of high character, mature, there’s a strong sexual chemistry, a strong friendship and a desire to commit–someone you have a PREFERENCE for.
What I would say is to really try to keep open about who might be right for you as opposed to being analytical about love, which is anything but analytical.
Good luck!
haha, I have to laugh at the Jewish women comments. Over the past year, I have new women friends that are Jewish, and they are all ‘difficult’ in some or multiple ways. The level of difficulty determines how much time I spend with them 🙂
Lily said: (original post)
“I’m convinced most Asian women seek out white men because a) they are generally seen as more desirable catches by society”
And a lot of white men have a fetish for Asian women. I don’t recommend getting into a relationship where the other person is more interested in what you are than who you are.
Lily said: (original post)
“though I have dated white guys, I deliberately don’t gravitate towards them because I can’t let go of that Utopian ideal in which one day people truly will be ‘color blind.'”
I also think interracial (and intercultural) marriages are a wonderful thing. However, most of the women who share my views on family are white women from North America or Western Europe. Family tends to be a dealbreaker issue in relationships. Obviously, the lack of dealbreakers is more important to the health of a long-term relationship than a utopian ideal.
Lily said: (original post)
“White men […] won’t understand me the way that a minority, “other race” person would,”
Is it that important that you and your boyfriend have shared the same experiences? Many people have significant life experiences that weren’t shared by their spouses. The vast majority of combat veterans are male. The vast majority of rape victims are women. If they try to date people who have walked in their shoes, they’re almost guaranteed to be single for life.
Millions of men and women have married spouses who will never fully understand them. (To a certain extent, that applies to everyone.) It’s possible for your partner to be understanding even when they don’t fully understand.
I’m not sure that dating a devoted white man is the correct solution. But it doesn’t hurt to look at the whole situation differently.
As you know Evan, I date outside my face. I’ve never considered myself as a sell out. I’ve always put my own happiness ahead of any other social issues. I know there are people who would like to maintain family genes and their culture. Some time you have to step outside the box to find happiness. I say Evan’s advice is correct and keep searching for love, where ever that is.
I think we need to distinguish between religion (Jewish/Catholic) and race (White/Asian). May be its just me, but being brought up completely non-religious and having never attended any service, I really could care less about religion. After all, you could be any religion you want, this is something that you can CHOSE.
But race is the whole different story. First, we can’t change our race and decide to be white or asian or black. There’s gonna be no conversions here. Second, you kids WILL look different and will struggle with their indentity, not being fully accepted as a member of either race.
So I think it is actually better for everybody to stay within their races for those reasons..
Also, I have to say that the way some Asian women pursue white men is very annoying, but what is more annoying is how some white men aggressively go for exclusively asian women. To me it is a major red flag and it means that a guy is looking for someone who’s submissive and possibly vulnerable (like an immigrant with no support network) so that he can exert control.. signs of abusive personality. Just saying.
Hmmm… I hear a lot of internal conflict. Personally I am more comfortable dating within my race. I am well aware I don’t understand the culture, customs, issues, position within society, etc. For me it seems like I have enough trouble bonding with someone in the first place. I would date someone of another race if it just, “clicked,” but so far it’s presented more barriers than bonding.
What is odd is when people only want to date outside their race. I even dated someone who didn’t want to date anyone with his same eye color! That speaks to self-hatred to me, which in this case was kinda true. Hmmm…
Anyway, I agree if this gal wants to date and have a family, date who pleases you most!
~moon
This post I totally agree with Evan on.
I’m a small blond girl from NJ. That doesn’t mean I have to date small blond men from NJ.
I think sometime’s it’s the opposites that attract us anyway.
I’m also an American raised Single Asian Female. There are many reasons why I prefer American white men and American Jewish men. Not only am I attracted to them, I also find them to be very caring, respectful, supportive and loving.
In traditional asian cultures, women are treated very differently. That is a fact. It would never work for me and that is why I prefer American men.
Some of these traditions and attitudes can be seen in American Asian men in various degrees. I rarely find an American Asian man that truly do not exhibit some of the traditional attitudes towards women. But when I do, I am open to dating them.
Bottom line, happiness and compatibility with my partner comes first.
Stacy:
“Also, I have to say that the way some Asian women pursue white men is very annoying, but what is more annoying is how some white men aggressively go for exclusively asian women. To me it is a major red flag and it means that a guy is looking for someone who’s submissive and possibly vulnerable (like an immigrant with no support network) so that he can exert control.. signs of abusive personality. Just saying.”
Why do you think Asian women pursuing white men annoying? And why do you see white men pursuing Asian women as annoying? Asian women being submissive is a misconception. Seriously, Chinese moms have a reputation for a reason. Lot of them are no way submissive! Just check out my mom! 😉
I am much like the OP. I am an Asian female in my late 20’s. I don’t share her viewpoints though. I will admit, I like white guys. I have no shame in it. I don’t like them because of social status or desireablity. It came more out of environmental changes. I was born and raised in California. Most of my friends were Asian and I always thought I would date Asian and end up with an Asian guy. I ended up moving from California to smack dab in the middle of the midwest. The city I was in, I probably saw a handful of Asians. I changed, I now like white guys more. I live in the southwest now, where there are more Asians. But not in abundance or anything. That’s just what happened. I don’t feel guilty about it. I’ve dated men of different races and each one of those relationships had different problems.
Everyone has things that they are attracted to. That includes race. Sure, going out with other minorities is easier in the sense that your cultures will be similar in some aspects. But why shut out a good guy who could be highly compatible with you just because of his race? You have to ask yourself how important race is to you. It’s not that big of an issue with me. My number #1 trait that a guy has to have is open-mindedness. That helps with any cultural differences I may have with people. That trait is something I look for in friends too.
Stacy 11
I think we need to distinguish between religion (Jewish/Catholic) and race
Good luck.
Jews consider anyone who has a Jewish mother to be Jewish, regardless of their beliefs. A large number of western Jews do not believe what is written in the Old Testatment, or follow it, the way that even moderate Christians do. So, Judiasm is not 100% a religion.
You can’t say Judiasm is a race either, even though many European descended Jews share some physical characteristics. Contemporary biologists have been debating about doing away with the concept of “race” altogether.
You can’t even say that Judiasm is community, as many Jews belong to a number of different distinct cultures.
You’ve got it backwards, Steve. Judaism isn’t “none of the above”. It’s ALL of the above.
It’s a religion – the oldest one around with only 13.2 million of us left after years of persecution and genocide.
It’s a race – there’s certainly Jewish blood and genetic characteristics.
For most of us, it’s really a culture – a heritage, a pride, a sensibility, a worldview.
As such, being Jewish in America is far closer to being black than it is to being Protestant.
It’s not wrong for Jews (or Asians or Indians) to want to marry within their own culture, especially if they feel their culture is being diluted.
The difference with Jews is that it IS being diluted and destroyed. Not so with 1 billion Indians and Chinese out there.
Lol being “jewish” in america is nowhere near being black sir. Judisim is a religion. “black” is not… but being Protestant essentially is. We did not go through the same things and we are NOT treated the same way today and we don’t have organizations successfully looking out for our well being and we don’t basically own hollywood. So yeah, being jewish in america, is way closer to being a Protestant as far as Im concerned lol.
Isn’t that because lots of Jews became secular or ran away from Israel? The place is a warzone. I can see why many don’t want to live there. But after generations and generations, all the traditions are basically lost.
For all its worth, i think if the OP switches to dating Asian men instead she will find a better husband at the end of the day. Why? Beacause there’s plenty of educated, well-to-do Asian guys out there and nobody wants to date them for the reason they’re… well, Asian. I went on dates with such guys – Stanford/Harvard/Goldman/Classical Music – every girl’s dream, right? Except when I pictured my kids looking like those guys – i knew there wouldn’t be a second date. So I would encourage the OP to go for it 🙂
@ Stacy- ” Why? Beacause there’s plenty of educated, well-to-do Asian guys out there and nobody wants to date them for the reason they’re… well, Asian.”
So how did Asians avoid becoming extinct?
Evan, why do you allow people to post blatantly racist and offensive comments such as #17 above?
So she thinks Asians are ugly, so she won’t go for them herself, but encourages Asian women to?
And says everyone should stick to their own race?
I have to wonder if this person is simply a troll.
Evan, apologies… I didn’t mean that as a demand to YOU. I meant it more rhetorically.
Luxe #15:
well, honestly, i think it’s annoying when asian girls pursue white men because of how they through themselves at those guys, it’s a hunt for them with the prize being a White Guy. There’s a lot of it in NYC. May be not so much on midwest or Cali, i don’t know. In business terms it would be called dumping 🙂 Yes, it is a competitive dating market out there.
As for guys – I explained, there’s predators out there. Being a (white)immigrant I have some experience with this type of guys. They go for foreign girls (regardless of origin really) because they think those girls would tolerate abuse and have lower standards than American girls, and no family nearby to set them straight or help them out. When I see a guy going for foreign/exotic girls exclusively, I run for my life.