Hoping you can give me some advice. I dated this girl for 2 years and we broke up last year. We broke up because she realized that she was no longer "in love" with me and that she felt there wasn't enough of a spark. Truth be told, there was another guy in the picture who she obviously had a bigger spark with. This wasn't my first breakup but it hit me really hard because I was so in love with her. In my mind she was perfect in every way, (except for the part where she just wasn't that into me). I've been dating on and off the past year and I have two main problems:
1. I've gone from being a serial monogamist to becoming completely commitment phobic. The minute a girl starts to get serious with me, I want to run away.
2. I compare every girl to her and all I see is flaws in other people. I keep waiting to have that "feeling" I had with her, because I'm scared that without that feeling, I will not be able to commit.
I'm worried I'm never going to get over this. Any help is much appreciated.
I would be much more concerned with your second problem than your first.
Your first issue is that you’re commitment phobic. This is a common problem, one that is usually remedied by falling in love with someone. Once you’re crazy about a girl, you won’t have to think twice as to whether you want to be in a relationship with her. Which brings us back to your second problem:
I compare every girl to her and all I see are flaws in other people. I keep waiting to have that "feeling" I had with her, because I'm scared that without that feeling, I will not be able to commit.
Let’s take these assertions line by line.
I compare every girl to her and all I see are flaws in other people.
Yeah. This isn’t good. Because it’s not real. It’s a rose-colored view of your ex, one that you’re having a hard time letting go of. Do yourself a favor and think of the things that you didn’t like about your ex. Now, I understand that she broke up with you, so you never really developed a chance to hate her. But that doesn’t mean she’s perfect – not by a long shot. Her main flaw, of course, is that she didn’t want to marry you. And any woman who doesn’t want to marry you isn’t really a very good choice for a wife. There are probably many, many more flaws that you glossed over due to your passion for her.
Being “in love” does this to people. In fact, Helen Fisher theorizes in “Why We Love” that being “in love” may be an evolutionary function that causes irrational thinking. In other words, in order to commit to something as irrational as monogamy, we’d sure has hell BETTER be blinded by love. Of course, that blindness wears off, which is why, when you talk to older couples who have been married for 30+ years, they’ll almost always tell you some version of “It’s hard work/We’re really just best friends/We know how to communicate and argue well/We support each other when it’s tough.” Etc, etc....