I've been in love with my friend for over 5 years. We've been friends with "benefits" for over 2 years. Over the years, he always assumed we were just friends and as for me, I agreed with everything he said because I loved him. He told me two weeks ago, he was getting married to a girl he was into for many years. She finally accepted his proposal. I was devastated when he told me the news. I decided then I would cut him off because I could not handle it emotionally. I just wanted to crawl up in a hole and cry. So I cut him off. It was only a week since he didn't hear from me. He got upset and came to see me. He said he was "hurt" I stopped talking to him. He still wants us to be friends and couldn't understand why I didn't want to carry on as we were. He didn't think it was a big deal that he was getting married but we could still maintain being friends. He couldn't forget me and he will never erase me from his life. How can I pretend to be his friend?
I've been sleeping with him for awhile. I couldn't imagine being introduced as his "friend" to his wife. He said everything will be normal and even I'll get married and it will eventually all work out. What should I do? Continue being there as his "friend"? Why does he still want me around even though he's marrying the women of his dreams?
Is he just using me?
I am so confused. Does he genuinely care for as a friend? He says so but somehow that explanation doesn't sit well with me. If he loves his future wife as deeply as he says he does, what does he need me for?
On one hand, I can’t imagine how you could be shocked when your best friend proposes to his girlfriend. On the other hand, I can’t imagine how you’d be so heartbroken if he’s been dating someone else exclusively for two years.
There are two very important pieces of information missing from your email. And until you clarify them, it's impossible to give sound advice. But I'm going to do my best to be a detective and figure things out, logically.
The way you tell the story, it sounds like you were the "once a week" girl for two years, and then suddenly, he informed you that he was marrying his long-term crush that he had never even dated.
But something about this scenario doesn't add up. It seems to minimize the relationship he has with his fiancée - as if he suddenly got married on a whim. Now if he DID get married on a whim - if he proposed to a girl he'd never even dated before, then, yes, I could see why you'd feel shocked and devastated at this sudden turn of events.
However, people generally don't marry total strangers. I'm particularly skeptical because you wrote, "she finally accepted his proposal". This indicates to me that this was his long-term GIRLFRIEND that he was marrying - not just a long-term crush.
Which brings up another question: was he cheating on his girlfriend with you for two years? Or were you friends with benefits until he got exclusive?
This, as you can imagine, makes a huge difference when it comes to assigning responsibility for how you could have ended up here, G.D.
On one hand, I can't imagine how you could be shocked when your best friend proposes to his girlfriend. On the other hand, I can't imagine how you'd be so heartbroken if he's been dating someone else exclusively for two years.
What I CAN say with all certainty is this:
He is selfish. You are clueless.
He is selfish because, whether he cheated on his fiancée or not, he has to know that you're in love with him. And while you say that he "assumed we were just friends", he was still having sex with you. The fact that he wants to stay in touch and act like nothing's changed indicates that he doesn't fully understand how much you care. Whether he wants to keep you around as a friend or as a hookup down the road doesn't matter. Neither case works for you. Lots of guys don't think they're selfish when they don't say "I love you" or make any promises about commitment, but the good ones know when they're abusing their power. This guy doesn't seem like a good one.
What I CAN say with all certainty is this: He is selfish. You are clueless.
As for you, G.D - "clueless" may sound harsh, but there are too many things that don't add up in this story.
Were you investing way too much time in a man who said you were "just friends"?
Did you have a fantasy relationship with a taken guy who blew you off years ago?
Do you foolishly want to win over a man who has been cheating on his fiancée for two years? Or win over a guy who has never given any indication to you in five years that he wants you as a girlfriend.
No matter what the real story is, you've made some major miscalculations. No matter how selfish your guy is, it's your responsibility for not reading the writing on the wall sooner.
Which is why my advice to you echoes exactly what you said in your original letter.
Yes, he cares about you as a friend.
Yes, he still wants to sleep with you.
No, things will never be normal.
No, you shouldn't be friends with him anymore.
Good luck to you - and good riddance to this one-sided, unrequited love you've been harboring for five years. I hope you won't accept another friends-with-benefits arrangement ever again.